I've had a few people asking where I've been lately... I'm sorry about that! I've been trying to fix a few issues with myself, which is easier to do behind the scenes.
Most of it has been health related. I've been focusing on trying to get back into a regimen that I had early last year: wake up, pack a healthy breakfast.... drink more water, take the vitamins that I know make a difference but for some reason still forget to take...
I'm also like a cat when it comes to changes. Big or little. Since I dyed my hair almost two weeks ago, I'm all on edge and skittish.
On top of that, everything I eat plays a role in how I feel (and think) about things. Refined sugars and caffeine are an absolute no-no. Taking too long between meals has this effect as well... sometimes sleeping in doesn't work out too well, especially after drinking.
Cabin fever. That's a big one. I need time outdoors. If I had the ability to enjoy comfortable weather outside for a few hours a day every day, all year round, I think 99% of this would be resolved... but in Michigan, that's not really possible.
But really, let's be honest here -- people deal with this stuff (and much, much worse) on a daily basis. They deal with it, and they're just fine. I can't run around blaming all of the worry on little things around me... I love being in the same state as my family and friends, am I going to move just to get away from the cold? That's stupid. Instead of running away from things that make me nervous (insert cartoon image of a scared cat here..... from earlier cat reference), I want to break each one of these down and live like everyone else.
I'm overly critical of myself. Everyone is... but I really am. All of this used to be much worse 2-3 years back. It's gradually gotten better. Sometimes I just need those little bits of time where I over-exaggerate how bad everything really is, just to bring my motivation back up. Right after those times is when I make the best changes.
So... that's where I've been. It's been a little while, but I'm not going anywhere.
How have you all been? We need to catch up.